O Life

I'm emotional, so maybe I should wait to write this but .. . . - here we go!

Sunday Nate and I talked about going to Texas around June 15th instead and rent there instead of here. :D I think that would be awesome. We've been looking at homesteading stuff and trying to get more information - it's so fun.

1. I want to make sure God's leading us - I feel such a peace about it, but I want to make sure He's orchestrating it.

2. Some people don't agree with our decision, but I'm ok with that. It bugs me, but not enough to stop me. If Nate and Jesus are on board, that I'm there too. :D Plus, I feel like my dad would be totally for the idea. Wish he was here ;(

3. There are unknowns: $, time, new place, I'm basically a city girl, and having kids with family so far. Nothing to worry over, but give to Jesus and consider carefully. I believe He will take care of us especially if we're in His will.

I guess that's all for now, but wow, 3 more winters! That's it haha! Plus, that would give us time to live down there and find the best place :)

We'll see.

Morgan

Here's a list of some stuff we're hoping for:

-Build an earth-sheltered home/barn/root cellar.

-grow our own veggies & fruit

-raise: cows(?), goats/Sheep; chickens, a couple dogs.

-have a pond with fish in it

-bee-keeping: have our own honey

-use solar panels to generate electricity

-for Nate to: hunt, farm, take care of the animals, work part-timeish, etc.

-for me to: Knit, farm, take care of the animals, cook, home-school, etc.

We Found Love - Lianne Kaye Binnington

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Outside is so Good for Us

Was dreading walking today, but I thought going outside might be a nice change up. And I'm so glad I did.

Walking out there, even with cars rushing by, was so good for me. The sun, the wind, the cold. It was only 31 degrees, but it was awesome. Me Jesus and Pandora had a grate time.

1) Nate and I want a homestead, with other people who love Jesus where we can all raise our kids, work the land, and enjoy a simpler, slow-paced life. Sometimes the idea of all that coming together seems so far away. But God not only leads, protects, and restores, - He orchestrates. He's got this. He's working everything out for me and Nate - it might not look like what we want it to, but it'll be pleasing to Him and that's all we need to concern ourselves with. #Awake and Alive Skillet

2) #Wish You Well by TFK - I miss her so much. But honestly, I know deep down that not having to deal with the mind games, tricks, and back stabbing has been so good for me. I think I mourn what was and grieve what I hoped and prayed it could be now/in the future, but both people have to want it. Sometimes I wonder if I should write - but I think I've said all I can. Other times I hope she'll contact me, reach out - or at least for me to have some closure but either way, I can't life like that day is coming. It might some day, but I'll let that be a pleasant surprise. For now, I wish her well. Wish I could help, but I can't.

3) As frustrating as it might be to not get the results I'm looking for, I don't want to give up on this lifestyle. This is the one I want. It's worth continuing.

4) Ppl do not belong in 4 walls all the time. #not healthy

Quote

‎"Test me, O Lord, and give me strength to meet each test unflinching, unafraid; not striving nervously to do my best, not self-assured, or careless as in jest, but with Your aid." - Ruth Bell Graham, Footprints of a Pilgrim

Undecided

Well, looks like I'm going to a SHE meeting tonight. It's a group of woman through Mosaic NEO. I don't know what it'll be like - but it can't hurt right? I think it's so weird that I found out about it on the day it's happening.

I want God to pace me, but I'm so hungry. This might not be it, but even just seeking is better than sitting. Even if I don't end up finding it. I'm also torn though, what about stow? What will that mean for all of my relationships there? Ugh, I'm torn. Wish this was easier.

But at the same time, I don't want to be compacent - content, yes. But not the other. I'm probably making a bigger deal of this than I need to. Nothing's set in stone, right? I'm just explorin' my options. It could just be a "side" thing after all. Maybe I can look at it like that?