Nathan and I Lately

I don't even know where to begin. But I have to write so I can get this out. He is absolutely wonderful. I am constantly run over by the realization that God has done more than I could possibly imagine. It's like one wave after the other, rushing on to my shore compelling me to thank God from the depths of my being.

He is growing into such a spiritual leader. Whether it's talking to Gordo, Marissah and Casey about Jesus, telling Travis how rewarding it was to give up the things he wanted to do and work at the international friends meeting, the way he gently nudges me to give thanks in everything and pray about it all. How he prays when I least expect it and the harmony and communion we've had with the Father lately.

Is this what prayer does? Is this how it works? O God thank You! You're truly answering my prayers. You are so faithful! You so give good gifts to Your children!

I love You more. I want to constantly give Nate back to You. Love the Giver more than the gift. Even if one day You take him back, You are so Worthy. Worthy of so much more. Help me to love You.

Back to Nate, the way he treats me is OVERWHELMING. It's just constantly wonderful. Listens to what I have to say OVER AND OVER. Giving up the little time he has to do things he likes to do to hear me ramble on, putting my wants over his own. I'm completely floored by how I ended up with him. How God could bless me enough. What we have is so wonderful. It makes me want to give him EVERYTHING. His m&m tasting kisses and the way chocolate makes him think of me <3 Perfect timing, perfect words - without having a clue that he's doing it. Thanks for it all, Jesus. And the realization that You've loved me so much more - how much more I need to be compleld to give my all back to You.

I was thinking earlier that Nathan is such a gift. And I told him so. Then I remembered that his name means "Gift from God."

How very appropriate.

*SM*Where did I go right*SM*