My God is a God of Freedom.
Wanted to write a blog to document today and how faithful God is showing Himself to be in our lives.
I've been struggling so much with the idea that sharing what I'm doing and what I'm into is like bragging (1 John 2:15-17). I struggled half the day with wanting to put up a picture of a beanie I'm knitting.
Well, then I read this link by Heather Lindsey, http://heatherllindsey.blogspot.com/2012/12/the-private-woman.html#.UNpCem_O1qk, and basically, Heather was saying that so many woman could benefit from what I'm into - we can connect and share. She stated that our focus needs to be on God, not starting something. Well, that takes a lot of pressure off, so I was glad to hear it. I was up till Midnight looking up verses, the Greek, and articles on finding out how God can use my gifts and what they might be.
So Nathan and I started a website, which is only in the planning stages but I'm really happy! I feel like it's a major 1st step into getting connections started.
Then, at the Library the next day I got Your Plan for a Balanced Life, kind of on a whim. Man, am I glad I did! I have pages of notes for progress, planning, and changes I want to make. One area was really getting me down: community, volunteering, and a 3rd place (in addition to home and work). Nate and I struggle in these areas because we can't find what we're looking for. We've volunteered at several places, but they're either way too impersonal, or require way too much of us. It's really discouraging. We want so badly to reach dark places for Him, and build relationships. Which is kinda hard based on what we want - a mix of In His Steps by C.M.Sheldon and Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne. Anyway, I was feeling SO bad about this part of our Faith walk: Jesus wants us out there! He's given us gifts and expects us to use our "talents" for His kingdom, not bury them until His return. But where to start? I prayed. Last night and this morning.
After figuring out that we really didn't want to do something outside today, I started thinking about how sad it was that some people would be alone today. Then, a woman I used to visit once a week popped into my head. I thought about visiting her, but I haven't seen or called her in MONTHS. And would Nate really want to do it? Ugh, I figured I'd rather just wait . . . or kind of go never. But then I remembered that one of the things the book said about Procrastination: Whatever you're wanting to put off for another day, do one small step TODAY. Well, I decided to just go for it - life is short and I'm trusting God to lead me, so it's time to take some risks and get messy.
Long story short, the visit was awesome! A mom and her adult daughter were also there and they were believers too! They loved hearing about our Homesteading vision and the daughter is in non-profit studies, which fascinates me. They knew of so many places to check out for volunteering and we exchanged info. I just read an E-mail of different things we could check out from bi-weekly worship services to a conference in - get this - 5 DAYS - that we can go to that should have a lot of information on serving in our area!
I'm not sure where we're headed, but o my gosh, I'm overwhelmed at God's faithfulness! And how quick it was this time! I asked, having NO clue where or what (we felt like we'd tried a lot of things) and then bam - He reminds me of the woman, I called, the visitors she had in addition to us (Same time and day!) seemed to be given to us by God for the very things that I had on my heart and brought to Him over this weekend. Why do I make Him small? He's so big! I think He just can't wait to bless us, if we'd only give Him a chance.
SO Enjoying Him,
Morgan
We also read the Environmentalism chapter in Red Letter Revolution and watched It's a Wonderful Life. We're bursting at the seems with ideas on ways to combine the vision God's given us for our family with His call to serve His church. I've wrestled with this for so long, I'm so happy right now.
O! And happy 10 year anniversary to me and Jesus - pretty awesome way to spend it <3